Sometimes I am stubborn.  I assert my will without considering the consequences.  I ignore that tiny little voice . . . that polite, loving, and patient voice. 

Sorry God.

But I get it . . .  now. 

Almost at the end of B.E.E. 90x. 

Jeez.

Rather than be frustrated with myself, I am thankful. 

Thankful that due to how long it has taken me to “get it” –  to apply what I have learned and know . . . that just maybe . . . maybe sticking with the original plan I declared almost 90 days ago will last much longer into my future.

My family’s future.

Which I think is the whole point I started B.E.E. 90x back in January:

Remember, the B.E.E. 90x Challenge isn’t about outdoing someone . . . or striving to achieve perfection . . . or completing the goal precisely. 

It’s about taking 90 days unto the Lord.  It’s about setting an attainable goal.  A goal with a boundary.  A goal with a finite date.  Not something you attempt to do for an entire year.

That doesn’t mean you will quit after 90 days . . . but it makes your task doable . . . smaller . . . manageable. 

30 days makes a habit.  Perhaps after 90 days your habit will become a lifetime commitment.  You won’t even think of it as a New Year’s Resolution – which was/is the VERY LAST thing I wanted the B.E.E. 90x Challenge to be for me . . . for you. 

But as I have sought to put the B.E.E. 90x plan into action . . . time in the Bible, eating well, exercise . . . I have made good changes.

I have cried.  I have gotten angry.

But I have changed.

Like our school.  I’ve given up on the dream . . . the way that I envisioned.  We aren’t in the school room surrounded by our lovely workboxes.  We are in the kitchen.  At the kitchen table. 

Where I am. 

Because I cook.  I ferment.  I sprout.  I grind. 

This is where I am.  I’m learning to be a GAPS girl. 

B is for Bible.  I’ve learned that my morning Bible time . . . might happen in the morning . . . but if I have been up several times at night with one or more of the kids . . . it is OK if I sleep as long as I can. 

Therefore . . . I put up scripture in Naomi’s room.  The Hottie and I are trying to go to bed earlier to read our personal Bible’s before doing our night time devotional.

E is for Eating.  Just because I sprout, doesn’t mean we can eat our nutritionally viable grain if our bodies can’t handle it.  Just because my baby has only had breast milk . . . doesn’t mean her gut can handle my favorite beverage . . . raw milk.

I may have thought I knew a lot about whole foods . . . but I have more to learn. 

And I’m going to.  I’m enrolling in the Reversing Food Allergies Course tonight right after I finish writing this blog post.

(On a side note, if you have PCOS, seasonal allergies, a leaky gut, an inability to lose weight – even if you eat well and exercise, a child with autism or ADD . . . ADHD . . . please join me.  If you have eczema . . . arthritis . . . life doesn’t have to be a series of medications . . . doctors appointments . . . or filled with a longing for the food you’ve been told you can NEVER ever have again.)

That felt like a prescription commercial.  Sorry about that.  Kind of.  I just want you to know that there is hope.  Healing.  One more road to travel down.

You don’t have to do all of this alone.  I don’t have to learn all of this all by myself.

I really think there is hope.  I know that when my Redeemer returns for me . . . I will be changed in an instant.

But while I’m waiting, I really want to live a full life. 

I’ve seen a glimmer of that this week.

(Insert:  E is for Exercise) With the small changes I have made in the past 7 days, I have lost 3.4 pounds.  I have had energy to exercise, even when I was actually significantly sleep deprived.  

I have enjoyed my children . . . which to me – has been the best gift.

And many of those changes have been because of following the guidelines in the GAPS diet. 

If a change in my dog’s diet can make a drastic difference in her behavior . . . and I am more civilized . . . intelligent . . . and motivated . . . than a diet change for me . . . might have dramatic results. 

I picked up my manual from the library. 

Yes, that is my hand.  I wanted you to see that I do indeed do what I say I’m going to do. 

And now, I’m going to go register for my class (before the price goes up).

Because it is the next phase of B.E.E.’ing for me.

P.S. You can use the coupon code HEAL to receive $20 off . . .

[optin-cat id=22967]